I feel bad... why?

Through out my weight loss journey there have been times when I have been places with people and they are eating sweets- high calorie, full or carbs and sugar deliousness, they see me and they say "I'm sorry to eat this in front of you." "Why? Don't feel bad I don't." The truth, I could eat those thing and I have on occasion and it has been worth every single calorie I took in. Do I want that ice cream or piece of cake, yea- it would taste great- but I also know what it does to my body and what my body will have to do in order to burn that off. As time goes on it has gotten easier to say no to those sweets to just pass and enjoy a glass of water and something I know wont send the scale back up. 

Its about choices and moderation. You have to allow yourself to cheat once in a while, otherwise you will become bitter and won't make any progress.  

Tis the season to be jolly… fa la la la la la la la BLAH! Blah is exactly how I have been feeling lately… The holidays mean sweets and treats are everywhere. This week I was feeling great. I was making good food choices and proud of myself. Then I jar of peanut butter fudge is delivered to my door. When I am ready to eat clean and be good, I can't have anything like that around. So the fudge went away. Out of sight and out of mind and dropped off somewhere else far away from me. 2 years ago Christmas I started working with one of my closest friends and personal trainer. If I can make it through the holidays… I can make it anytime of year. Keeping in mind.. it is ok to cheat once in a while… as long as its not all the time. 

Food

In times of stress I used to do one of two things. I would either eat- and eat a lot or I wouldn't. Both are bad. As I have traveled along this journey I think back about food. Yes Zumba®, Personal Training, and classes with Girl Power Fitness have been a huge part of me loosing the weight, but food also has played a role in it as well. 

At first I didn't change what I was eating that much. Overtime I had to. I was stuck at the same weight for months. I was working out, I was eating healthy, I was doing everything right I thought. I started working with a good friend, who is also a personal trainer. We changed how I ate and when I ate. We had to play with foods. I didn't know that even those foods I thought were good for me might have been causing me to maintain (and sometimes gain) weight and not loose it. Did you know that if you are "sensitive" to a food your body blots? By eliminating foods I was eating and adding them back in and closely monitoring my weight and workouts we were able to find what foods I should try to avoid or limit. It was amazing. I lost nearly 40 pounds in the time I worked with her. 


Over the last year since stopping the personal training I have gone up and down. Right now, I am up. The truth? Summer vacation hit and I stopped eating on a schedule. I attended cookouts and gave in to those cravings and I'm paying for it now. I have to own up to it and move forward. So its back to planning my meals, pre-making lunches for school and planning my workouts, telling my friend and personal trainer friend and following through. 

No excuses. Excuses don't yield results. Work does.